I had my semster-ly observation at work today.. that's where the administrator comes into the classroom and watches the teacher teach, makes notes on what you're doing right, what you're doing wrong, and gives you pointers on what you can do better.
It was terrible.
Usually I'm totally on my game. I have my agenda, I've worked out my plan and know exactly what should be happening each and every minute of each and every class period.
Today, well, let's just say nothing went according to plan.
I was nervous to begin with... knowing that someone will be scrutinizing your every move can be unnerving. I happen to put an enormous amount of pressure on myself on a normal day so you can imagine what it's like on a special day, a day when I know I have to be better than normal.
I managed to get class started- everyone was present, accounted for, and in their seats. The agenda was clearly posted on the overhead projector, attendance was taken, and the lesson was off to a good start.
Then the fire alarm went off.
A FIRE DRILL?? IN THE MIDDLE OF MY OBSERVATION??
As if I wasn't already a nervous wreck... I had to hustle all the students out of the building, keep track of them outside, wait patiently on the curb with them and the rest of the student body while the pretend fire was put out and, once the drill was over, I had to make sure all the kids made it back to the classroom. At that point, I attempted to get everyone back on track with the lesson.
FAT CHANCE!!! My brain was all out of whack, I couldn't remember where we'd left off, I got cotton-mouth and started sounding all smacky when I talked... and I even misspelled a word on the overhead projector. (The word was "learn"... I misspelled the word LEARN!!!) OH GAWD.
Oh, and did I mention I lost a kid? Yeah, one of my students never came back to class after the fire drill. I'm pretty sure I won't be winning any awards for that.
(I'm an a-hole idiot.)